Below are the 16 most recent journal entries recorded in rune57's LiveJournal:

Tuesday, February 22nd, 2005
2:30 am	radio So yeah on saturday my roommates come up to me and ask me if I want to join them in a radio show in which we just talk about whatever random things come into our mind. For some reason I am still not entrely sure about I accepted this. So now my roommates adn I have a radio show that is on saturday nights from about 10-12 our time. The best thing is you can listen to it online as well so everyone can hear it though I forget the website right now. Hope whoever reads this tunes in to listen to us and trys to voice your opinions to us cause we could use it. And now I sleep. Nate Current Mood: happy (Comment on this)
Thursday, January 13th, 2005
5:09 pm	Rain So for the past week it has been raining on and off here in good old Terre Haute and as I have been walking around I notice that people seem to hate the rain. THey do whatever they can to keep themselves dry and try to spend as little time in the rain as possible. I wonder why this is, I love walking through the rain and letting myself get soaked. It is so uplifting and so much fun to do even though people will call you crazy or insane. Today however I forgot that it was 40 degrees outside and didn't wear a jacket, prehaps I am going crazy..... Current Mood: cold (Comment on this)
Monday, January 3rd, 2005
1:06 pm	flaws Earlier in the week I was talking to Jim about flaws that people have and flaws that we ourselves had. It got me wondering about my personal flaws, since i hadn't really thought about it much I am not sure what they are. I am just curious to those out there who read my LJ what you guys think my personal flaws are, comment if you like and say what you want I won't care what you say about me. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, December 13th, 2004
1:50 am	when in rome and funny WoW story well a bunch of other people are doing it and when in rome, and yes these comments are screened. would you.... 1. Go out with me? 2. Give me your number? 3. Have sex with me? 4. Let me kiss you? 5. Watch a movie with me...even a really sappy one? 6. Let me take you out to dinner? 7. Drive me somewhere/anywhere? 8. Take a shower with me? 9. Be my GF/BF? 10. Have a fling with me? 11. Listen to me if I called you crying even if you were out with all of your friends? 12. Buy me a drink if I didn't have money? 13. Take me home for the night? 14. Would you let me sleep in your bed? 15. Sing car karaoke with me? 16. Sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone? 17. Re-post this for me to answer your questions? 18. Let me give you a piggyback ride? 19. Come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere? 20. Humour me? well anyway I was playing World of Warcraft and I am about lvl 25 when this happens. One of my characters friends catches a gnomish warlock killing a deer and skinning it for its leather in Darnassus the home town of the elves. So she asks me to come in and teach her a leason. She is about level 12. So I walked up to her and started to just chew her out and just yelled at her about defiling nature and proclaiming that she must be destroyed for the greater good of the people. Eventually I let her off with a stern warning. Later I get a message from her guild asking me to join them because they were impressed with the RP element that I has added to her characters experience. I just found this amusing. Current Mood: peaceful (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 1st, 2004
11:30 pm	<td colspan Its so true, though World of Warcraft is even better. Now I hear it calling to me, I must go play.             warcraft3 is love Current Mood: geeky (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 28th, 2004
6:57 pm	Break....The good, the bad, and the ugly Well I just got back to school from break. Break was a lot of fun and was also very relaxing. I needed something like this to take all of my stress away. During break there were several parties, I hosted DnD, played DnD, played vampire, and saw a couple of movies. The incredibles is a really funny, really good movie from pixar that I recommend everyone to see. Finding Neverland is a very dramatic, very sad story about the man who wrote peter pan. It has johnnie depp in it and as always he played his part beautifully. Though the movie is really sad and so many horrible things happen. I would say that it is worth seeing but be preparing so a slighty sad ending. I got to see a bunch of people I haven't seen for a while which was nice, got caught up with everyone and just hung around the house a lot. On the down side though several things happened that I wished hadn't. Mr. Dannels father died and he was one of my more favorite teachers so I feel really bad about that. Also my cat is really sick right now and more likely than not he might have to be put to sleep. I really hope that it doesn't come to that. My foresight is beginning to bug me cause it is becoming more and more frequent and I am seeing things that I know will happen I just don't know when or where and it is irritating to know those sort of things. I remember why I dislike Geoffry, to me he seems like he acts honorable and gentlemen like but in truth isn't that way and I hate people who pretend like that. Also he is bringing out a bad side to schiffman. Schiffman is trying to become more and more like geoffry, which isn't really that bad of a thing, but while Geoffry knows the difference between right and wrong schifman seems to lack that ability. He doesn't seem to understand that there are things that are not acceptable to do in a situation and it is beginning to really irritate me. anyway it is time to drown all of my thoughts in world of warcraft if you want to talk to me find me there. Current Mood: hopeful (Comment on this)
Monday, November 15th, 2004
2:13 pm	Hard Drive Failure well on friday my computer decided to stop working so I tried what I could to fix it but it still decided to not turn on. Today I took it in to get it fixed and they told me that they were going to have to replace the hard drive. So I just lost almost everything on my computer. Sometimes I guess it sux to be so dependent on technology but sometimes I have no choice. Though with the stress of everything else going on this is not what I needed to have. Current Mood: annoyed (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 10th, 2004
2:00 am	Aurora Yesterday I went to see the aurora. Despite the bitter cold and the large amount of trees blocking the horizon I was one of the few people able to see it. The aurora was an amazing site to see. It was as if the sky was blanketed with a white shimmering cloud. Periodicly shifting in its brightness and shape. It was a glorious site that made all of my stress go away. Current Mood: happy (Comment on this)
Monday, November 8th, 2004
10:01 am	sleep Last nigh I couldn't get any sleep. This is usually bad because every time that this has happened it means that something bad is going to happen. Not necessarily to me but to someone I know. Every time I couldn't sleep something really bad has happened to one of my friends. I wonder what will happen today. Current Mood: sleepy (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, November 7th, 2004
11:58 pm	Sanity well now I finally thinking that the last strands of my sane being are beginning to fall apart. Finals are approaching and the work load is really high. My grades in two of my classes depends heavly on the grade I get on the final and I need to do well otherwise I won't be able to continue with teh curriculum. It doesn't help also that most of my emotional problems aren't going away though some of them are beginning to get worked out. Then my roommates are also going insane and having the work and stress get to them as well. I just need to survive for two weeks adn I will be ok but it is going to be the longest two weeks of my life. If I don't make it I am afraid that I will be taking as many people down with me as possible. Well hopefully I won't go over the edge, I am going to get some sleep soon, or finish Rah Xephon. Something will happen Nate Current Mood: stressed (Comment on this)
Sunday, October 31st, 2004
6:30 pm	Samhain I wish you all a blessed Samhain, happy new year to all of my fellow friends out there. Hopefully your Samhain was better than mine because I had to spend mine alone but it was still enjoyable. Nate (Comment on this)
Sunday, October 17th, 2004
3:19 pm	Break, Life, Love, and barriers Well I just got back from fall break. I had a good time and most of the stress I had from school has left. Though the stress is gone my depression still lingers. During the break I did a lot of things with my friends and a lot of them were fun and I tried to forget everything that is happening to me. First night I was back we tried to get a group together and watch the debates but unfortunately Kelsey had some problems and we ended up spending the rest of the night trying to chear her up. I would like to think that we were somewhat sucessful. Afterwards Ariel, Rennie, and I watched the Emeperors New Groove, which Rennie hadn't seen, and hung out for a while. Ariel ended up staying the night. My anger and contempt for Kelsey and Geoffry have gone down a bit. I guess that I really can't hate them for very long while I do hate quite a bit of the things that they do. I just wish that everyone in our group of friends could get along like that but unfortunately some scars run too deep for that to happen. On thursday I had to go to the doctors office, he weighed me in and talked to me a bit about school and possible therapists about my eating disorder. I have been steadily losing weight since I first began to see him which is good but I still need to be losing more. Then Jasmin, Rennie, Johnie, Jasmins Chibi, and I went to go see shark tales. It is a pretty funny movie and kept us entertained for a while. After that we dropped off jasmins chibi and went to DnD at Jim Dobbs house. We had a lot of fun there. It was a silly-ish game but it was still fun. (I still wonder why I never run out of arrows?) After that I drove everyone home. Friday I did work around the house and then played games with my father, Rennie, Clark, and Sarah. We played union pacific which is a neat stock/building game. I thought that Rennie had the extreme edge but I ended up beating here by about 10 points. After that game Rennie and I went to see YAMO. It was really funny but the theme kinda fueled my depression. I want to say it was better than last years but I can't remember. Each one had their good points. We talked to Pixie and Jasmin and then left. Saturday was DnD and vampire. DnD was fun and I think that everyone who came enjoyed it. I have to admire Ariels determination, she was willing to come to DnD and possibly go to came even though she was feeling incredibly sick. Graham, Dave, and I tried our best to make her feel better. Jasmin showed up later but had to leave early due to YAMO. It ended up not mattering that much cause Vampire started at 6 not 7 like I thought. Game was intersting, we had the black plague coming to the city, the prince acting insane again, and I finally put my plan in motion to destroy the prince. *sigh* Why does love have to be such a complicated thing? Why do we fall in love, is it just instictual or is it human made? My own love life is really messed up right now. I think that I love a girl who I have no clue how she feels. I am sure that this is love cause the isn't like the crushes I have had on people and this isn't some sort of deep respect like what I have for Rennie, Jimmy, and Andrew. I also don't believe that it is just me seeking companionship with someone cause the feeling I have didn't change when I was with rennie, ariel, or kelsey. My feelings are also in a knot, I feel good about something that has hurt another. This makes me feel bad though due to my sense of honor and decency. I shouldn't feel good about something, even though it benefits me, that has hurt another. THis makes me wonder about how i deal with things. How I feel about life and death and what makes me sad and happy. well that is my rant for now, I might add things later. Nate Current Mood: depressed (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 22nd, 2004
10:24 am	Dreams and angst For a while now I have been able to see th future in my dreams. This usually happened at random intervals and usually took months before the event happened. However recently my precognitions have become more and more frequent and closer to the date that it actually happens. My conversation with Jasmin, the wedding brunch, my trip there, and recently my astronomy lab were al things where I saw the outcome and what was going to happen before hand. I often wonder what this means and why I am able to do this. I wonder now why this is happened more frequently and if something I did has an infulence on this. Still ever since the wedding I have been feeling really depressed. I came to certain realizations and just thinking about them will make me feal sad. I have talked to a couple of people about it and it helped for a while but the depression is beginning to get to me. I have never felt like this ever before and I am not sure if it will go away. To top things off some of my friends from home are feeling down or have problems of their own that they are facing and it makes me feal worse to be stuck here unable to do anything about it except listen. well I will wait and see how things turn out. Nate (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 19th, 2004
9:33 pm	wedding well my sister finally tied the knot. Yesterday she got married to Clark in a large wedding. It was a lot of fun and when it finally came down to it I was extremely nervous. The minute the doors opened I just starred out there like a deer caught in headlights. Though once I walked down the aisle and returned to my proper location I calmed down quite a bit. The flower girl Estr was adorable, she got about halfway down the aisle before stopping, she needed her mother to come and escort her the rest of the way. Then the vows were exchanged as were the rings and the ceremony was over. After the ceremony we all went to the evanston golf club, which is in skokie, for food and dance. I sat around and talked with Jamin, Rennie, Johnnie, Jimmy, Andrew, and Larry. We danced and played around and everyone as far as I know everyone had a good time. Rennie was able to catch the bouquet so we are all wondering who she will decide to marry. I begin to worry about my own feelings and how some people feel right now. I worry about Johnnie and how he is, I truly wonder how stable he actually is but he seems to be ok. I look into my own thoughts and wonder what exactly I am feeling. I think I like someone but I am not sure if I really do or if I am trying to fill a void of my life. I worry about if I tell them it will become akward for them. I also worry about my mental conditions concerning my phobias. I wonder if I ever can fix them. It is times like this I wish I could read thoughts or auras to put my own mind at ease. That is all for tonight. Nate (Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 8th, 2004
10:42 pm	Wednsday well today was interesting, first I was almost late to my e-sys lab because I slept in a little too late. THen once I got there I found out that neither me nor my lab partner had the materials needed so we needed to aqcuire that. Even with all of the set backs we were one of the first groups done so I am not complaining that much. Did my homework today and I am glad that Relativity has gotten easier, I was really frustrated with the first homework assignment and would have dropped the class if all of them were that difficult. Game theory is going well I am really enjoying it and discovering that I can really understand this well, maybe because of all of the games that I play. Trying the add new foods to my appetite is going ok but not well. I am still too scared to try anything but I am lessening my fear of it. I can almost bring myself to eat it without my stomach beginning to convulse. I went to fencing today for th efirst time this year. All we were doing was teaching the freshman the proper etiquette and fighting stances. It wasn't too exciting but it was interesting teaching the freshman the way to fence. After Fencing I finished up my homework then played slowdream. One of my roommates GMs a free form RPG, he created a world where the power of dreams is the most powerful item in the world, the entire world is one big dream but to alter the dream takes a lot of effort. WE acn create any character of any power as long as he is balanced so that he wouldn't be munchkin. I am a being that is three minds in one body, my mind is seperated into my logic side, my compassionate side, and my aggressive side. I can switch inbetween each midn at will and it is a lot fo fun. Especially with the range of characters that the other PCs have come up with. (Comment on this)
Friday, September 3rd, 2004
11:24 pm	Deck and life well we finally have our deck up and finally moved all of the beds underneath. Now all we have to do is to move all of the desks and stuff into our room. Today I slept in and missed my first class but I made it to my 2nd class. Anime club was today and we watched Millennium actress which is a very interesting anime about a women recalling her time as an actress. Afterwards we went to stake and shake where we hung out and talked for a couple of hours. We got into the subject of religion and spent a lot of the time talking about it. THe one thing I do like about my roommates and the shcool in general is that no matter what religion you are you will be accepted. WIth a few exceptions that is. anyway I will try to update this as soon and as often as I can. (Comment on this)